This coming week would be my 4th week of my last semester. As usual offcampus mode, doing assignments, eat, sleep and then one week passes. Semester is finishing in July.....not too far away. Been applying for jobs but all i got was rejections and more rejections. What to do? no experience in management and i'm not a PR or citizen. Can't hope for much.......
People say its not over yet.....God will open the doors IF i was meant to stay here. I guess deep down inside my heart I just have this feeling that I will be going back. What I'll miss being here in melbourne is the people i've been with for almost a year. They have been my greatest companions in melbourne. My life group and church people. I never had so much fun ever in my life. The support and friendship they gave me is priceless and i wish i can stay back and do much more for them.
Well some say going back to Malaysia is not too bad.....ITs definately true to some extend. That's where you come from...its your roots. The only thing i wish i wouldn't want to say is staying with my parents can be tough at times when they don't treat you like an adult. But what can i say every parents will want their kids to be kids forever......I'm definately thankful that they gave me the opportunity to study in melbourne now. At least they did eventhough they didn't before.
At this point in time my thoughts are
1) melbourne is good but is it what God wants me to be?
2) parents are getting old if you don't spend time with them when will you do it?
3)If everyone leave Malaysia who is left to fight for the country in someways?
4) In malaysia churches are bombed what next?
5) weather too hot in malaysia and currency never seems to increase.....
haha probably the last option is not that important.
I guess its not harm going back to Malaysia to gain some experience and then if i want in future i can come back to melbourne to further my studies or find a job......
But by then i donno what may happen.......cross road in life really make you think a lot and also let you realise that what you have to do at these times is to rely and seek God. We can't do this on our own. We can try to rely on our strength and ability but eventually it will lead to tiredness and negativity when things don't turn out well.
I guess the present my lg gave me for my birthday is meant for me.....
Trust the Lord your God with all your heart and lean not in your own understanding in all your ways acknowlege him and he will make your path straight - Proverbs 3:5-6
lml
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